l'univers du saumon v. Schrödinger's Cat

02 July 2008 @ 11:59 pm

In which I am older.

Haha, it is actually 1:06 AM CST, but I am backdating this to be on my birthday, damnit.

So I'm 22.

...And that's it. I'll tell you about the plane ride and whatnot later.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: happy birthday to me.

feeling::

blah

♪♫:: Nothing.

10 are quite alive | so, what are you?

28 June 2008 @ 03:02 am

In which I watch Good Eats.

There's an episode on CINNAMON BUNS currently airing. I'M SO HAPPY.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: food, television

feeling::

mmmmm

♪♫:: Duh. XD

2 are quite alive | so, what are you?

27 June 2008 @ 03:29 pm

In which you just KNOW it's gonna be GREAT.

When you sleep from 6 PM to midnight, gag on your meds and then vomit a few times, try to get some sleep around 7 AM, only to have severe abdominal pain wake you up an hour later -- you know it's gonna be an AWESOME day.

I was in such bad pain I couldn't move. x_x And I was home alone, since my brother was getting his wisdom teeth out and my mom had to be there. So I called up Pillow and asked him what side your appendix is on. Fortunately, it's on the right, and my pain was definitely on the left.

Oo, thunder.

I'm soooo hungry but I don't dare eat anything... because my stomach wants something VERY specific and there's no possible way I could get it. :( I'm going to debate with it a while to see if I can coax it down to something that's not only available in New York City.

Um... let's see... I guess that's really about it. Ugh.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: food, pillow, sick, sleep or lack thereof, sore, stomach issues

feeling::

sick

♪♫:: You Only Live Twice - Nancy Sinatra

5 are quite alive | so, what are you?

27 June 2008 @ 06:21 am

In which huraay - I did arts!

It's been a while since I've drawn anything, due to traveling and Christina's cord problems...

Umm... I'm too sleepy now to do any sort of commentary on it, but I wanted to post it... because.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: art

feeling::

tired

♪♫:: A Hov Turnabout (LOL)

6 are quite alive | so, what are you?

24 June 2008 @ 01:27 am

In which I get taken out to the ball game for a very long time.

Yesterday, I was up all night, and then went to sleep at 7:30 in the morning, only to wake up at 10:30 to go to a Red Sox game. I was a little worse for wear, but I made it there okay. Mom and I stopped at Filene's Basement to try to find a hair product she and Danielle like, but it wasn't there. :( After that, we looked into Borders for Paprika on DVD, but it wasn't there, either!

We then walked down Bolyston all the way to Fenway, found out there was a 50 minute rain delay and they were just uncovering the field as we got to our seats. Yay! Aunt Michelle came with us, and it was fun. :D

It was a rather uneventful game, but at least the weather was kinda nice... the occassional rain wasn't a bother because we were right under a cover from one of the upper seats. Another row closer and we would have been uncovered, so our seats were nice, out in right field, to the left of the Cardinals bullpen.

When I say uneventful, I mean it was scoreless until the 7th inning!

...and then it wound up going into extra innings.

Around the 11th inning, I started to LOSE it. I was so tired and frustrated, and they kept filling the bases and then striking out. >/ And during the 12th inning, my dad bopped me on the head and accidentally hit the bill of my cap, knocking my glasses off... so I burst into tears. He felt SO bad! I tried to explain that I wasn't actually upset, but he still felt bad about it, so I asked him to get a bottled water for me. I'd been waiting until the game finished to get something to drink because 3.75 for a 20 oz. bottle of Poland Springs? Whatever. I love PS and all, but that's a ridiculous price!!

Dad went to the concession stands right as the 13th inning started while the Cardinals got up to hit, and wasn't back before the Red Sox were getting ready for their shot. So I called him and told him to please come back, since I'd feel so bad if he didn't get to see them score and win the game.

No sooner had he gotten back that Kevin Youkilis hit a 2-run walk off. AHHHH THAT WAS SO COOL. And I was secretly like, "hay I'm psychic lololol" because we'd been talking about walk off home runs earlier in the day and there it was!

It was a very good way to end the game. Considering I was so pissy and wanted to leave, I was glad I stayed.

We walked from Fenway to the Copley T station, hopped on the subway, and went back to the car to go to Kelly's Roast Beef. We drove home, I talked to Pillow for a moment, and then fell asleep around 10-ish... until 6:30 PM on Monday.

Mmm. What a nice day. :D

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: boston, dad, family, mom, sleep or lack thereof

feeling::

good

♪♫:: Fresh Prince.

3 are quite alive | so, what are you?

20 June 2008 @ 08:32 pm

In which there's a quiz. ...yay.

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio.
North Central
The West
The Inland North
The South
Boston
Philadelphia
The Northeast
What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I AM from those big Southern cities like Atlanta and Dallas! lol. So you're damn right I don't have an accent. Um, except when I'm sleepy and I start to drawl.

I'm so hungry but I know my stomach will react... poorly to any introduction of food...

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: meme, nothing of any importance, stomach issues

feeling::

hungry and sick =/

♪♫:: None.

2 are quite alive | so, what are you?

20 June 2008 @ 04:02 am

In which I figure that hey, -paperwork- will definitely solve my social anxiety!!

As per a comment on

indigestible's LJ, I've been thinking about a form that you can give to people after you hang out with them, to see if you're not totally awkward and unlikeable. It's a common social ailment -- being too self-conscious to accurately read a situation, which then skews your perception horribly in one direction or another.

SO! I made it. XD ( It's under the cut. )

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: friends, good jorb!, lol, nerddddd, people're strange when you're a stranger, review

feeling::

creative

♪♫:: Thinking of the goddamn Pinky game music!!

10 are quite alive | so, what are you?

19 June 2008 @ 05:15 pm

In which there's another Writer's Block: We met on LJ

Who did you meet on LiveJournal you wouldn't have met otherwise?

View other answers

My husband, my best friend, and about fifty million other fantastic people. 'Nuff said.

In other news... I'VE GOT THE POWER!! My replacement cord came in. :D

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: friends, livejournal, writer's block

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: None right now.

so, what are you?

17 June 2008 @ 08:08 pm

In which I update somemore.

Okay, so, I need to update! Annnnnnd here we go!!! ( May 26-27 )

And that's that for now. The 28th through whenever, coming soon!

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: apartment, books, food, new york, shopping, vacation, wifester

feeling::

blah

♪♫:: None.

1 is quite alive | so, what are you?

17 June 2008 @ 12:33 am

In which I'm doing science and I'm still alive.

AGGGHHHH. So, I've been kind of without internet for over a week. The hotel in New Jersey didn't have wireless (who carries an ethernet cord around, really?) and my laptop charger suffered a cruel fate... but I'll report on that later. I just wanted to update and say I'm still around and missing you all dearly!!

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: internets, oh christina

feeling::

sore

♪♫:: None.

so, what are you?

06 June 2008 @ 11:56 pm

In which I'm thoroughly surprised, in Boston, and updating about Sunday the 25th.

So I'm kind of shocked that only

tscheese noticed the special bonus at the end of the write up, lol. For those of you who didn't catch it: the reason I went to New York was to go apartment hunting with my wifester. Anyway, I'm in Boston now because Pillow is coming into Logan at midnight. I'm waiting at the hotel because we both figured it'd be easier. Tomorrow is the 7th, and it marks 5 years of being husbandy and wifey, awwww. It also would have been our big fancy wedding if that hadn't gotten rescheduled, lol.

Anyway, on to... ( EPISODE TWO: Louis Gets Points )

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: anniversary, new york, pillow, vacation, wifester

feeling::

excited

♪♫:: Global Underground Moscow - Deep Dish

so, what are you?

06 June 2008 @ 12:42 am

In which Saturday the 24th is recounted.

Alright... so... I'm gonna attempt to sit down and recount the past week and a half. XD Saturday first. ( Episode One: WHITE GUUUUURLZ. )

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: new york, stomach issues, vacation, wifester

feeling::

okay

♪♫:: "One on One" on TV.

1 is quite alive | so, what are you?

05 June 2008 @ 02:54 am

In which I have a positive ebay experience.

Okay, I just fell victim to the four hour nap, so I'm too groggy to write anything of meaning... however, I did want to mention if any of my LJ friends enjoy import games (especially Sega Saturn or PSX or older ones like that) this seller gets four gold stars and an A+++ from me. I ordered Snatcher on the 1st, and it arrived here either yesterday or today. First of all, it was less than twenty dollars. Secondly, I marveled at the impeccable packaging. It was in a big envelope, inside a neatly taped box, inside some newsprint, inside bubble wrap, inside a plastic wrapper. There was even some bubble wrap inside the game's case!! And last but not least, the game is in far better condition than it even has any right to be. I don't actually HAVE a Sega Saturn so I can't, y'know, play it, but the game manual was described as being in "good" condition, whereas I'd describe it as "what the hell -- this is excellent -- there is still a sheet of game STICKERS in here". Also, the communication with the seller was very friendly and very responsive.

In summary: this dude rocks. Go get your oldschool import games.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: ebay, video games

feeling::

impressed

♪♫:: None.

so, what are you?

24 May 2008 @ 02:25 am

In which I pack up and go! What!!

Okay, so on incredibly short notice (i.e. this was decided on like... Wednesday) I am off to NYC to visit Ali! This is kind of awesome, because I've never just... gotten up and gone like this, I don't think. Normally these trips are planned far in advance. It's almost like we live close to each other, wtf!

Anyways, I'll tell you more about the trip later, but that's where I'll be if I'm not around. Feel free to, I dunno, comment and leave me silly messages or something. I want to feel like one of those LJers who always has like, 35 comments on dumb shit! XD

Also, LOL,

tscheese, if you want to meet up with Ali and I in the city and check out her beat up Metro Card and hear me be grumpy about New York, feel free to send me a text via my user info. :3 (If not, that's cool too, seeing as we're just some weird kids you know on the internets. XD)

Ummm, I guess that's it. I'll be gone from tomorrow to Thursday. Ooh, also, I'm seeing CAKE tomorrow! :D Yep yep... I'm going to a CAKE concert with my mom and dad and then hopping on the train. What an awesome daaaaay!

Oh, and speaking of cake, I'm making plans with the caterers -- oh my gosssshhhh the wedding keeps getting closer!

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: concert, dad, mom, music, new york, vacation, wedding, wifester

feeling::

hopeful

♪♫:: None. Thinking of "Optimistic", though.

7 are quite alive | so, what are you?

22 May 2008 @ 03:45 pm

In which I utilize yet another Writer's Block: Whose part would you play?

If you could be cast on any TV show, from any time, who would you play?

View other answers

OH MY GODDDD. I would be Liz Lemon's intern!!! That is all. XD

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: 30rock, television, writer's block

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: Style Her Famous on TV.

so, what are you?

19 May 2008 @ 11:00 pm

In which I note that today was special.

Today was a very special day!

It was the feast of St. Failure, the patron saint of pillows and failing.

Happy birthday, my fluffypuff. I might not know why you fail, but I sure know why you live. You make me happy by simply existing.

Also, you are old. XD

And Jon Lester pitched a no hitter! Wow!

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: birthday, pillow

feeling::

9_9;

♪♫:: None.

so, what are you?

18 May 2008 @ 04:13 am

In which I utilize another Writer's Block: "Anthropomorphic buddies"

Have you ever named or befriended an inanimate object? What did you call it?

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Yes, I named my (almost) constant companion for the past four years. Christina had a habit of getting sick and having to go away for a while, and she's still not very quick to catch on trends, but she's loyal and hardworking and does what I ask her to, even if sometimes there's a bit of procrastination in the form of a beach ball. Her energy level has been slipping, and I can't take here around as long as I used to be able to. Even when we're just chilling and recharging, she has problems gaining it back because it seems like she just can't connect anymore. Her beauty has faded, and she's visibly worn down and worse for wear, with scuffs and scrapes and scratches. Tiny fragments of her glowing display have burnt out. I sometimes think about replacing her, but I feel too much of a personal attachment to this old gray mare that ain't what she used to be. We've been through a lot.

You're my connection to my best friend and my only pillow, and without you, Christina, I would be lost. Samantha backs you up and helps you keep your files in order, but she's small -- and without you, she can't function.

Also, Haro, you are old, but you work better than all the others in the house. And you know what? I so don't need color to listen to music! XD

Yes. I'm this fond of my iBook and iPod that I'd write such silly things. It makes me sentimental! Also, this is my 3,200th journal entry.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: journal-related, oh christina, writer's block

feeling::

okay

♪♫:: Don't Change Your Plans - Ben Folds Five

so, what are you?

15 May 2008 @ 10:04 pm

In which The Office appears to be full strength again. Just in time for the summer break. :(

Wifester: So like, the writers of The Office were like 'Sorry for last year Ali, we wrote this episode for you.'

WORD.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: television

feeling::

excited and sleepy

♪♫:: None.

so, what are you?

15 May 2008 @ 06:47 am

In which I fufill a dare.

This is on behalf of

nuriko_chan, who dared me to write an LJ entry... like I was 14 again.

Sigh. Everytime I get my hopes up about something, it falls apart. I'm too scared to even wish for things anymore. I'm really glad I have my Pillow-kun to encourage me, but even he can't guarantee the future. I'm getting sick again and I haven't been sleeping well. My eyes sting because I'm awake so early, but I couldn't get back to sleep. Life's really not fair. If it were fair, I'd have a bunch of friends that I could go to the mall with or whatever. Instead I'm stuck at home. I hate New Hampshire. -.- I think I'm going to watch more Simoun today. Or sleep. I don't know, whichever strikes me as being more fun. I miss Pillow-kun. I haven't seen him in three months. If only I could have just slept those three months away. But then I wouldn't have gotten to visit Ali-chan... and that would not have been good either... so oh well.

EW GOD I can't do it anymore.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: meme, nothing of any importance

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: None.

9 are quite alive | so, what are you?

14 May 2008 @ 06:34 pm

In which not a whole lot is going on.

Not much to report here. I've had a silly sleep schedule... 3 PM-1 AM, then 2 PM-9 PM, then 1 AM-2 PM. I was also sick with nothing in particular. Nausea, headache, low-grade fever, runny nose, soreness... it was like the flu, wtf? But without actually being the flu. So the bizarro sleeping has had a lot to do with that.

I NEED to see Pillow. NEED.

And that ties into something else I will touch on briefly: when Pillow and I got engaged, I kept waiting for someone whose opinion I trust to be like, "You know, that's a terrible idea" for whatever reason. It wasn't that I was uncertain about tying the knot; in fact, I was the opposite of unsure... but that's what made me worried about it! XD I just can't trust my own gut sometimes... because I'll mislead myself into thinking something is a good idea, when my instinct tells me it's not. So it's hard for me to discern when I'm really hitting gold or I'm just digging in a sandbox. If I don't get grounded by someone else, I might run head first into a terrible situation.

In that case, all signs pointed to gold, and my family and friends agreed with me that getting married was an awesome choice. So when I have a inclination that something is feasible, I have to feel it out with others to see if they also think it's a solid plan. It's only when I feel positively about it and others also back me up that I truly start to believe in the reality of an hypothetical situation.

I believe in the reality of a hypothetical situation.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: blergh, pillow, sick, sleep or lack thereof, the fyuchar~

feeling::

listless

so, what are you?

12 May 2008 @ 12:55 pm

In which a movie and my clothes are mentioned.

And I'm okay with that! Because POTC was a good popcorn flick, both creepy and grand. Also, Verbinski has experience with CREEPY CHILDREN, lol.

In other news, today is certifiably laundry day. I tend to dress fancier as laundry day approaches, because it means my jeans and shorts have been worn to the point where I don't feel sanitary wearing them anymore. XD So the skirts, dresses, and random other clothing items in my closet get put to good use. Today, it's a tan sleeveless jumpsuit. Tomorrow, back to jeans.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: clothes, movies

feeling::

bored

♪♫:: None right now.

1 is quite alive | so, what are you?

11 May 2008 @ 11:45 pm

In which I acknowledge the day.

As Mother's Day draws to a close, I just wanna say I'm very thankful for my mom. She's sacrificed a lot to be my mommy, and she put up with even more to be Danielle and Chris's. She's a good person and a good role model, and for that, I'm grateful.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: mom

feeling::

sick

♪♫:: None.

so, what are you?

10 May 2008 @ 03:07 pm

In which a dream occurs where many of my interests merge into one big oddity.

Okay, so I went to sleep at about 10 AM this morning and just woke up, and I wanted to continue sleeping, but I NEEDED to post because...

I HAD THE WEIRDEST DREAM LAST NIGHT. AAAGH. And I must write it down before I forget.

I was browsing some woman's blog and she was talking about a tradition in India where there's a flute that's played with only one hand. I showed it to Ali, who was all "Oh, she writes about pens!" and I was kinda confused, so she showed me another entry where the blogger said something really witty about pens, then whipped out this little well worn book and flipped to a page about how the author only loved writing because they could write in ice blue ink. She proceeded to show me how most of the chapter beginnings had an "illuminated" letter in a different pen color, but it was set in PAPYRUS (I loathe that typeface... no, I'm gonna call it a font) and I disapproved. So she walked outside my room, just standing in the hallway, then came back in with a tape measurer and started measuring things.

The book was written by a guy who looked and acted like the unholy combination of Tim Gunn and John Waters. He had a blog, too, so I glanced at it and it was mostly about pens and Obama. I was confused, so I read Achewood instead. After that, I left, and talked to my brother. Now, sometimes Achewood doesn't make sense to me, but it wasn't quite like in the dream, where my brother was referencing some extremely weird punchline and I only barely rememembered it. I had a vague flashback to Jim and Pam from The Office reading the comic in a school computer lab, and Jim was mumbling something before asking Pam what her favorite song was. She started singing "Just Like Heaven", and he was like, "Oh, right, I knew that..." and stared harder at the screen. Pam made a comment about how if he loved it so much, he should set a date and time (lol whut) and he made one of those patented sad!Jim faces and said, "I can't."

My flashback ended and I was reading the comic, which started with some guy with a bunch of overweight chickens. He was selling them as chicken plugs, since they could stop leaks. There was a flashback in the comic strip to one of the cast visiting the set of "Shut Up I'M Watching The X-Files: The Movie" and then the word SPACESHIPS. I wasn't sure what to make of that, so instead I watched a show about high school where a teacher and three kids were making t-shirts for a dance in an art room.

WHAT.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: dreams, sleep or lack thereof

feeling::

groggy

2 are quite alive | so, what are you?

10 May 2008 @ 04:35 am

In which I post a video.

This is pretty much one of my favorite Japanese commercials now. XD

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: video

feeling::

cheerful

♪♫:: This song!!!

4 are quite alive | so, what are you?

09 May 2008 @ 09:33 pm

In which the Pinky disease GROWS.

PINKYS ARE A DISEEEEEASE. ( And I've got a pretty bad case... )

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: figures, picspam, pinky:st

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: Nothing.

10 are quite alive | so, what are you?

08 May 2008 @ 09:58 pm

In which I love 30Rock.

Oh my godddd I love 30Rock so hard. Amazing. AMAZING. (Dare I say? I like it more than The Office.)

Jenna Fischer in a sparkly purple sequin dress, however, is also amazing. XD

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: 30rock, television

feeling::

happy

♪♫:: None.

1 is quite alive | so, what are you?

08 May 2008 @ 03:08 am

In which I utilize "The Writer's Block: Step into My Closet" prompt.

How many pair of shoes do you have? Out of those pairs, how many do you wear more than a few times a year?

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I have a fair amount of shoes, I'd say about at least 22 pairs. I have at least four pairs of slippers (and they're all light purple or pink), four pairs of boots (one black pair that laces up, one black pair that doesn't, a tan knee-high pair, and white gogo boots - the latter three I got for less than 15 dollars combined), around seven pairs of high heels (one black lace outrageous pair, one sparkly burgandy strappy pair, one golden clunky heel pair, one brown sueded pair, and at least three black pairs), three sandals (one pair of Birkenstocks, one pair of flip flops with cupcakes on them, one pair of white sandals that wrap up my legs), two pairs of sneakers (one pair of black and red Roos, one pair of white Reeboks), and a black pair of Dansko clogs and peep-toe wedges.

The ones I wear a lot are the black clogs (pretty much my default work shoes), the black wedges (they're adoooorable and I like the lift), the Birkenstocks (nothin' says "I'm relaxed" like corkboard hippie sandals!), the white Reeboks, a pair of lavender fluffy slippers. Occassionally, I wear the brown sueded high heels and the reasonable boots (the gogo boots are new and I got 'em for a song XD). I have yet to wear my white lace up sandals because I got them this Christmas, and the others I kind of wear sporadically. The outrageous black lace shoes finally got worn for the wedding! :D

I have some other shoes, but they're waiting for a trip to the Salvation Army.

( SHOE PICTURES. )

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: writer's block

feeling::

bored

♪♫:: Good Eats on TV.

4 are quite alive | so, what are you?

05 May 2008 @ 06:49 pm

In which I address a problem.

Dear Ebay;

Please, allow me to see who else is bidding on an item again. This is the second time I have unintentionally outbid one of my dearest friends (in this case, Pillow) on an item, and that really doesn't need to happen. If his name had not been listed as l***l, I would not have made such a mistake. And last time, I outbid my darling wifester by a penny on something I was trying to buy -for her-.

Sincerely,
NTG

Tags: pillow, stupid., wifester

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: None.

3 are quite alive | so, what are you?

04 May 2008 @ 07:18 am

In which I'm really good at Tetris.

HEEEEEEEEELLL YEAH.

Love and Peace,
NTG

feeling::

geeky

♪♫:: Korobeiniki~~~

8 are quite alive | so, what are you?

26 April 2008 @ 06:06 pm

In which my week is briefly mentioned.

nuriko_chan left earlier this afternoon after a weeklong stay at Casa de NTG. ;-; But we had a good time, even if it wasn't as outrageously exciting as New York was. New Hampshire really doesn't have as much to offer, especially without a vehicle, but we made do with what we had. Since I did the NY writer up, I think Mrs. West should do the write up for her trip, lol, but that's her prerogative.

However, I will tell you the main elements of our time together: Degrassi, Food Network, going to sleep at 5 AM, Star Wars, Avon, and pizza. XD

Also? Today marks the third time that I thought I had to work, but I didn't.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: stupid., weekend update, wifester, work

feeling::

okay

♪♫:: None.

so, what are you?

24 April 2008 @ 02:10 am

In which an anniversary is celebrated.

On my 3,176th entry...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LJ

I've been an LJ denizen for 7 years. What a long 7 years it's been!! I've:

Met my best friend

Failed freshman year

Started homeschooling

Moved

Got my first job

Went back to school

Graduated high school with high honors

Met my husband

Started college

Moved again

Dropped out of college

Gotten engaged

Gotten five more jobs after the first

Gotten married

Learned a ridiculous amount about myself!

Not bad. Not bad at all.

An actual update coming later.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: journal-related

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: Fresh Prince on TV.

5 are quite alive | so, what are you?

16 April 2008 @ 06:16 pm

In which there is more art.

Okay, so, I gave up on the group picture. But, here's what I was able to salvage! I'm still... aggravated with legs, but at least Juno's calves look pretty nice and Farrah has ankles, kinda! They're linked to full size views.

And now I'll start again on a new group picture. XD

Man, ever since I woke up, I've been so nauseated. I haven't been able to eat anything of substance (unless half a piece of pizza, a few pretzels and a Laffy Taffy counts...) and I want to make myself a protein shake but they're only tolerable with ice cream, and to eat ice cream, I'd need to take a Lactaid, and to take a Lactaid, I'd need to be able to swallow without gagging...

BLEH.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: art, blergh, sick

feeling::

sick

♪♫:: The Only Way Is The Wrong Way - Filter

so, what are you?

12 April 2008 @ 06:49 pm

In which I am tired and I buy more stuff... whoops.

Uuugggh so tired... I finally fell asleep around 3 last night, after fighting with my newly discovered aversion to ice cream (Since when have I been lactose intolerant?! Since a few weeks ago, apparently, to be technical. GASTROINTESTINAL SYSTEM I HAVE NEVER HATED YOU MORE!) and then was awakened this morning at 9.

UGH.

I mean, I'm glad my parents invited me along on their errands. I don't like being left behind and I do like getting out of the house. But 9 AM is cruel, even with a decent night's sleep.

Anyway, of note to myself (we went other places but who cares about the fireplace place or BJ's?), they did most of the necessary errands before we went to Borders I wound up buying books at Borders (man, I just packed up like, 75% of my books... I didn't need to add more, but I CAN'T RESIST BOOKS T_T) -- one about the assassination of Alexander Litvinenko and the KGB, a collection of MC Escher works, a book on saving money as a newlywed (lol I still don't get how I buy books about saving money...), Anne Freaks volume 2, Star Wars: Panel to Panel, which is a bunch of neat Star Wars comic book art. I also got ten little magnets with drawings of calavera on them, since they were 50% off and I like Dia de los Muertos-related stuff now. XD And, uh, some heavily discounted Easter stickers. They're so adorable, though. I gotta find a reason to use them.

After Borders, Dad and I hit up Newbury Comics while Mom opted to stay in the car. I picked up two Kashimashi trading figures. I thought about how there were only two in the set that I actually wanted, and what the odds were that I'd get them, so I was going to put one back, and then I was going to put BOTH back and get a twin pack of Pinky:st figures instead... and I wound up just getting all of them. And I'm glad I did because a) I got both trading figures I wanted!! and b) the Pinky figures are so cool. T_T; I love Pinkys, holy crap, it's like a DISEASE. After

sailormgm bought her first one, it spurred me to finally get one for myself... and the more you have, the more combinations you can make... T___T They're cute, too. Here are my girls!, plus the two leftover (headless) outfits in the background. XD

On an unrelated note, I finally pulled a picture off my mom's cellphone from Semiwedding that she hadn't sent to me yet, and here it is: I'd hit it. I imagine plenty of people say that on their wedding night, but not quite in the manner it's used here...

I guess that's about it. Wow, this icon is so appropriate, because I am both a) tired and b) about to read a book!

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: blergh, books, dad, dr. freeeeeman~, figures, mom, pillow, pinky:st, shopping, sleep or lack thereof, stomach issues, wedding

feeling::

drained

♪♫:: None.

8 are quite alive | so, what are you?

22 March 2008 @ 02:26 am

In which a throwback reference is made.

OH HEY.

I'm in New York with the dopest kid in town. And we had this thing about not eating meat on Good Friday (despite that I am not entirely sure if either one of us are the least bit religious??) but WE DID IT! And so we fist pounded because we beat the devil.

More later~

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: lol, vacation, wifester

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: Charlie - Tiger Tunes

7 are quite alive | so, what are you?

17 March 2008 @ 02:06 am

In which I wish D & C a happy B.

Happy birthday to two kids I've known since they were born -- my siblings, Danielle and Chris! They're lucky twins, born on St. Patty's Day of 1990. Which means, for those of you not playing along at home, they're 18!

SWEET CHRISTMAS THEY'RE 18.

That's so bizarre. That means they're going off to college. That means I'll be 22. That means EVERYONE IS OLD.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: family

feeling::

okay

♪♫:: Funky Shit - Prodigy

4 are quite alive | so, what are you?

14 March 2008 @ 06:16 pm

In which things go from bad... to pathetic.

Hmm.

Another news brief. "We're still working out how to strike just the right tone when communicating with such a diverse and complex collection of communities." How about... actually communicating it, instead of leaving people to figure it out for themselves that a company they've supported for years is about to screw them?

An LJ advisory board member addresses the situation. Hm. That doesn't bode well.

Brad (almost each and every LJer should know who the Brad in question is) is mad.

This is beyond lame, you guys. This is seriously... bad business skills.

(Can anyone think of an appropriate "In Soviet Russia..." joke for this situation?)

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: journal-related, linkspam

feeling::

frustrated

♪♫:: None.

1 is quite alive | so, what are you?

13 March 2008 @ 10:39 pm

In which it's better late than never!

Okay you guys, I didn't mention this, but a while ago I felt a huge pang of guilt for my impulsive shopping ways. If I had money to throw around, certainly there had to be something better to do with it?

And so I started donating -- to websites that I knew consumed a lot of bandwith and that I frequented often, to animals in need, and last, but not least, some human counterparts. The biggest fund drive being:

Being the selfish individual that I've become, I tend to like donations I get something out of, be it an update about a cat with FIV and diabetes or high quality videos. This fundraiser has it all! I felt good about giving to someone who's trying to make ends meet and get her mouth fixed without insurance (ugh, I saw my aunt go through that a few years ago and she didn't even have as major an operation... no fun) as well as supporting an independent comic artist... plus, you get all sorts of awesome stuff from people who've pitched in to help!

And really, if they want to give me stuff for helping, who am I to say no?

^ all that above sounds really terrible of me, but the point remains that YAY I DID A GOOD THING. And I encourage anybody who can to do the same and donate a little or a lot. :D

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: good jorb!, linkspam

feeling::

i do gewd

♪♫:: None.

3 are quite alive | so, what are you?

13 March 2008 @ 06:27 pm

In which I announce a deadline.

HOLY SCHAMOLY -- THIS IS THE BIG ONE, FOLKS.

Or, more precisely, this is.

No more Basic accounts can be created? "Changes" to paid accounts? SEKRITS AND Liiiiies?

It's amazing when even people who used to work for LJ have spoken out against the actions SUP has taken. I'm thoroughly impressed by the magnitude of what the news post has turned into. It's not "wah why did you ban my pedophilic fanfics?!" BS, it's "you've jilted all of your customers, not the least of which the ones that pay for your services -- now watch what happens."

Here is one of the most well-written comments about this situation. Also, search for

rahaeli's imput, too. I know she used to work for LJ and, in fact, did many

news updates.

Hm. Wordpress seems pretty cool. I'll stay here until April 24th. If things are unsatifactory then... I guess I'll abandon this paid account, archive my entries, and leave.

Which is a damn shame, because I do love LJ. I've been here for seven years! That's longer than I've lived in New Hampshire. That's longer than I've known most of my friends! And many of my friends, I met via LJ as well...

Sometimes, you just have to let go, I guess. So, there you have it. I wish my paid account didn't last until October, ugh.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: journal-related

feeling::

livid

♪♫:: None.

10 are quite alive | so, what are you?

12 March 2008 @ 01:46 am

In which I relate a very odd dream.

Ugh! I just took a four hour nap. I HAET when this happens, and yet, it always does. I fell asleep at 9:30 and then found myself awake and alert ten minutes ago.

But... that gives me a chance to record my dream for posterity!!

I dreamt that I was in some random house and my brother was little again and playing with his friend. I had invited

auguris over, and she was on the computer while we were talking and listening to music. My parents were asleep for some reason, and I was worried it was too loud for them, but when I asked them, they were fine with it. She wanted to read something, so I told her to check out this 100 page Achewood story about Roast Beef and Ray going to the Caribbean with Phillipe's mom. and so she went to read it.

But by the time she did so, it had become something totally different!

Now it was a strange Bleach fancomic about Yoruichi and this guy, and they were having really tastefully drawn sex. But then he accidentally said the name of his ex-girlfriend and Yoruichi FLIPPED OUT and blew up most of the room. She wound up with a stake through her head accidentally, but apparently it didn't phase her at all, so she just snapped it off and then walked over to him, telling him that the lady in her was going to sleep now. (?)

And then she went out and was going on a journey to somewhere, but she was wearing a mask kind of like Kaonashi from Spirited Away except it looked more feminine. She kept luring people over to her and then talking to them nicely before stabbing them in the side and killing them.

The worst part was when she was crossing a bridge, and there was this tollkeeper woman, and she didn't trust Yoruichi at first, but then she sweet talked her, so the tollkeeper came over and Yoruchi pulled her close and stabbed her in the back!

Completely and utterly out of nowhere, the scene changed to me sitting at a desk and playing with a broken binder that apparently Rivers owned, so I was like, "Why don't you just buy a new one? You work at an office supply store!" and he was like, "But I like it that way!"

... then I woke up.

And now, a meme! "Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything."

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: dreams, meme, sleep or lack thereof, wtf?

feeling::

amused

♪♫:: None.

6 are quite alive | so, what are you?

10 March 2008 @ 02:30 am

In which I discuss a dream and what I really think it meant.

I had a dream a few nights ago about being sent back to second grade. It was odd because I was totally 22 in the dream and I'm not quite 22 yet... and also, elementary school doesn't really involve changing classrooms for each lesson.

Regardless of the incongruities, the dream was relevant in its symbolism: I was sitting in a class, surrounded by 7-year-olds, all of whom grasped whatever topic we were being taught way better than I did. I specifically remember the English part of the dream, where the teacher was discussing complex sentence construction and for some reason, I just couldn't get it. (I think I understand it well enough in reality, though, ahaha.) I also remember being frustrated because nobody cared to know why this 22-year-old woman was back in grade school.

It's a reflection of how it sucks to have been a gifted kid. Because now I'm neither gifted, nor a kid. Or, perhaps I'm still "gifted" but they're just lesser gifts than other people bring to the table. I wasn't some prodigy who went to college at 12 or something, and I didn't know how to play Chopin by the time I was 4, but I was a pretty damn smart kid.

And now I feel dumb. A lot. Even at things I once thought, "Yeah, I'm skilled at this!"

My mom said that people warned her that this could happen. And well, it did, heh. I think that a lot of it has to do with losing my social circles, which has made me doubt a lot of the things I took for granted about myself. I find that I'm second-guessing almost every little thing I do, wondering if other people noticed or if they think I'm stupid.

I was talking with Rivers about how I think that my younger self would be so disappointed in me now. He said that he's positive his younger self would be really disappointed in how he's turned out, and I thought... wow, that sucks. Why are we not who we thought we'd be? I know what's been stopping me from getting where I want to go, and it's like... a truck blocking the exit to a mall full of monsters. I can't just climb over it for some reason. But I know that if I wander around with my tiny knife long enough, I'll find out my destiny. And maybe my destiny will suck! Or maybe it'll be really important.

Maybe I'll give birth to a god.

Anyway, SH3 references aside (my icon is completely appropriate, wow), I'm mostly cranky with myself for getting upset about this right now when I am so close to the exit that I can feel my hand on the door. But that's the thing... I've been here before. And I hope I'm not let down again.

So, social and generalized anxiety ties back to realising I am a small fish in a big pond and it just winds up with me feeling not good enough.

My namebadge at work says otherwise, though. There was a girl (she quit a week or so ago) who had "Blondie" underneath her actual name, and another girl had a different nickname on her badge. So, I figured, if they can have stuff on their nametags that's not their name, why can't I? Thus, my namebadge now reads like this:
SARAH
SALES ASSOCIATE
I'M GOOD ENOUGH, SMART ENOUGH
AND GOSH DARNIT, PEOPLE LIKE ME

It makes me smile, at least.

Love and Peace,
NTG

Tags: deep thoughts, dreams, introspection, is this over yet?, the fyuchar~, the past, work

feeling::

pensive

♪♫:: The Logical Song - Supertramp (ahah, apropos)

9 are quite alive | so, what are you?